My name is
Claudia, 26 yo. I'm currently attending the MSc in Public Health at the
University of Southern Denmark (SDU). I graduated in Psychology at the
University of Padua in 2021. As a fun fact, I'm writing this report on the flight
from Pisa (ITA), my hometown, to Esbjerg (DK), where I live.
I would like to
address this report directly to the future students willing to do this
experience, since reading the past students' reports really helped me a lot
before, during and after this experience.
I took part of
Progetto BEA for three months in 2022, as choice for my academic internship. I
arrived in Petrolina (PE) two weeks before the coordinator and almost a month
before the team. Even if it looked like the end of the world, and in some
moments I believed it was, the situation gave me several insights about myself
and the new condition I was about to experience.
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| A
papaya – mamão. Really
sweet and healthy, but potentially it will try to kill you |
Like a lot of
students, I was feeling kind of lost regarding my choices, academically and
personally. When my Brazilian flatmate opened the door, the first thing he told
me was Fica a vontade. Do what you want, take everything, do like it's
your home, are some of the possible translations. These words feel so kind and
lovely now. However, back in time they sounded so overwhelming in my head… I'm
here. Everything is possible. Everything could me mine. Not waste your time.
Not waste your energy but use all of it. Do something worthy. Use this chance. Fica
a vontade.
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| My
favourite picture. Pôr do sol na ponta da Ilha do Massangano. September 2022 |
Trying to not
waste my time was like a mantra for me at first. But that came with
consequences. The question I found myself worried about those first days in
Juazeiro was "What am I doing here?", followed by "If you are
not sure, why are you here?". I guess it's pretty normal and healthy
questioning yourself. However, sometimes I confused "questioning"
with "self-doubting". That could happen when you are far away from
home, while learning a new language, with the head full of past students' stories
of life-changing experiences...
When I was in my room afraid of going outside,
rationality wasn't really helpful. Yeah, clearly in more than 10 years of Progetto
BEA other students felt bad, but everything worked out for them. But was I the
worst of all? What if I am not able to grab those opportunities? What if I
am not enough to have a life-changing experience? My friend who did the
same experience last year was a lifesaver during this period.
That's also why
I'm talking about that. You are not the last one is going to be part of the
project, but you're also not the first. So, a survival trick I've learned in
Brazil it is that I need to respect my time.
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Centro de
Terapias Naturais Gianni Bande – “Desacelere. Tudo está bem”, “Slow down. Everything is all right”.
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Yeah, it's cool
going outside, meeting people, drinking, doing capoeira, dancing, singing,
camping... And there will always be time for that. The comfort zone exists for
a reason.To me, the reason is allowing myself to take challenges when I feel
ready to enjoy what I'm doing. Used as I was to run in Europe, dribbling
between school, work, social life, I tried to do the same in Brazil, for fighting
the feeling of missing out. That really didn't work out for me. All the stuff I
did running were so full of un-joyful feelings. Closely related to this, the
second thing I've learned thanks to this experience is that stop-and-breath is
something that requires exercise.
The sunset on the Rio Saõ Francisco made it
easier to do. Doing that was really helpful even when the team arrived, finally.
Or when I got a papaya on my nose (twice). Or when I burnt my feet stepping on
a fire. Breath, and hope your amazing people (or the SUS) will save you... And
they will.
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Unknown island. First aid of a second
grade burnt with tapioca flour, before an amazing experience at the UPA
(Brazilian emergency ward). October 2022.
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One the
activities of my internship was working within the university (UNEB), joining
the organisation of the I Semana de Imersão Total em Aprendizagem
Solidária GloCal, part of the XI Workshop Nacional de Educação para
convivência com o Semiárido Brasileiro (WECSAB).This opportunity gave me
an insight of what means organising an academic international event, thanks to
Nicola. Meeting professors from around the world, engaging meaningful
conversation with them with the feeling of being treated as a peer, it's
something I didn't experienced a lot before.
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| CAPSij
- The INTEREURISLAND and Progetto BEA teams with some of the international guests
during the I Semana de Imersão Total em Aprendizagem Solidária GloCal.
September 2022 |
I went through a
similar feeling while working in the CAPS II of Petrolina (PE). I was treated
as a professional. Clearly, as an intern, I received training, and my
responsibilities were limited. Furthermore, I had to create my own duties most
of the time. But for them, I was treated as accountable for my actions. In that
context, fica a vontade took the meaning of not being afraid of
challenge yourself and propose activities, workshops, or simply to go talking
with someone who could need your help. Breath, one, two times, then go. When
you feel ready and comfortable.
What I am trying to say here is not that you
should not doing stuff and keep it quiet. Just that allowing myself to listen
what I was feeling before doing things helped me a lot. It gave me more
motivation and joy while doing everything I wanted to.
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CAPS II André do Cavaquinho – My last
day. October 2022
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I think all
those tricks I have learnt can be summarized in just few words: hold the
judgement. To wait and listen before talking. Ask "Why" with the
honest feeling of don't know the answer. Always, for everything. Towards
yourself most of the times. Forgive yourself. I know it sounds so clique and
rhetoric, like a bad movie. But it helped me so much enjoy everything around
me, I really hope it can help someone else.
Everyone is going to tell you the
same for approaching a new culture. Holding judgments that you didn’t know you
had, because back home that is so normal, so true, that you have never needed
to question them. It’s real. It is also true that sometime is your own team
that feels like is made by persons living in other planets.
Give it time I'm
pretty sure you're going to love their planets, or at least being happy to be
in the same galaxy.
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| Morro
do Pai Inácio, Chapada Diamantina – Equipe 2022 |
To conclude, three
months were too less in my opinion. Going through so much in such a short
period of time can be overwhelming, and when I started to feel I got a routine,
it was the moment to leave. However, as I wrote above that was also a chance to
experience my own time and my own rhythm – a rhythm I am bringing with me.
Esbjerg 2022,
Claudia
